I submitted this story to Cancer Positive and they published it.
Turning Anguish into Art
A Message from Terry:
Two months ago, my brother Bob was diagnosed with follicular lymphoma, a type of B-cell lymphoma, and bone cancer. Needless to say, it turned our world upside down. When we received his diagnosis, it literally knocked the wind out of me. Prior to that day, I did not even imagine that it could be cancer causing the lumps in his neck. I optimistically thought it could be benign, fatty tumors, but sadly, I was way off base on this one.
To watch my brother cry was heart wrenching. Not only am I his sister. I am his appointment coordinator, his support system, and his cheerleader. He was scared and so was I. Even all my years in nursing did not prepare me for handling the devastating effects that cancer can bring.
Through these dark days, it was time for me to stay positive. It’s time to stay courageous and help him to do the same. To help stay focused, I immediately started to journal my brother’s journey dealing with cancer. It’s my way of coping with life’s ups and downs. After a while, I recognized that my experiences could help other cancer patients and their families. It is my way of taking a negative and turning it into a positive.
I wrote the following poem right after his diagnosis and how he felt after receiving the news. I hope that other families can take solace in knowing they are not alone and to never give up hope.
“It’s Cancer” by Terry Moore
It’s cancer – Oh no,
breathe in, let the energy flow
What will I do,
where to start, I have no clue
I am scared, I am numb,
I just want to hide, I just want to run
It’s so overwhelming at first,
Tears well up inside and I am ready to burst
It’s OK to cry,
It’s OK to wonder why
It’s an emotional roller coaster ride,
I’ll slow down and take it in stride
There is support and hope,
It’s there to help me cope
Asking questions is where I will begin,
I will fight and I will win